Unexpected!

So I was re-diagnosed with Breast Cancer the other day. Actually it was back in July. July 6 to be exact. Funny how I had to look that up on the calendar. I can tell you the exact date and roughly the time I was diagnosed the first time. But the first time was completely unexpected. I had a feeling about this time. All the signs were there this time. I even had an inkling back in December when they saw "something" on my yearly MRI. They sent me for a follow up ultrasound in January and also saw "something". Somehow I was talked out of having a core biopsy taken at that time. They said give it six months. Yeah, I had a feeling then. Should have pushed like I know I need to on these things but I don't think I wanted to face it again. But when the GP felt the same lump I had been feeling for the last little bit (and swearing it was just scar tissue - shut up little voice in my head) and set me up with another ultrasound, I knew! So when they suggested a core biopsy during the ultrasound I said "go for it". They did, and a week later I REALLY knew. Of course everyone else around me had been being so supportive and saying that it would be fine, so it came as a huge shock to them. They all really had a tough time with it. Of course by that time, I had been processing it for a week (my little voice had already convinced me).

So the biopsy says it is the same thing as the first time. Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma. It is even in the same place. At first I kept thinking that if I had just had the third surgery they would have gotten it all and I wouldn't be here entertaining you like this. But come on... could've, should've, would've! I stopped beating myself up about it after the first week. I also had to let go of my pride a bit (a whole lot)! I became a nutritionist because of all the things I learned the first time I had cancer. I changed my lifestyle and so did my family. How could this possibly come back? Well, it's because I still had more to learn (I should say HAVE more to learn as I'm quickly finding out there is a LOT out there to learn). But it sure is getting simple. The only way I'm going to beat this is by fixing what is wrong. I knew enough the first time that you can't just treat the symptoms (read Breast Cancer). You have to go deeper and figure out the causes. That's why I hate The Run For The Cure. Give me a break! There will never be a pill to stop cancer! No offence to anyone who believes in the Run. Go ahead. Running is a great idea. Getting together and rallying for a cause is a great idea. Believing in something is REALLY important. If you believe in that, and it is holding your health together, go for it. I'm saying this because once you find out what I'm planning on doing for my health, I'm counting on you to believe in me and believe that I can do it. No matter what.

By the way, when I changed my lifestyle the first time I gave up sugar and dairy and went Vegan with a little fish thrown in for good measure. I'm pretty sure that is why my tumor is only 5mm x 7mm. It isn't very big for being 4 years old. So that is why I'm still holding up my head as a Nutritionist. What I'm hanging my head for is the fact that I STILL am not taking care of myself as much as I need to. This post ends in half an hour 'cause I have to go to bed!

My plan? It is nutrition based of course. And I can only take credit for the Raw Food part of it. My husband found the rest on line for me. It is called Gerson Therapy (http://www.gerson.org/) and in it's simplicity it breaks down like this:

13 juices
3 huge mainly raw food meals
several supplements
5 coffee enemas

DAILY!

This is my new life. It is all about me. It's pretty cool actually and it is a great science experiment. The Therapy was developed way back in the 1930's by Dr. Max Gerson. It is based on eliminating sodium and increasing potassium in the cells. It also works on the thyroid immune system, and liver. Let me plagiarize for a bit from A Cancer Therapy by Max Gerson, M.D.:

"This therapy is based on the concepts (1) that cancer patients have low immuno-reactivity and generalized tissue damage, especially of the liver, and (2) that when the cancer is destroyed, toxic degradation products appear in the bloodstream which lead to coma and death from liver failure. The therapy consist of high potassium, low sodium diet, with no fats or oils, and minimal animal proteins. Juices of raw fruits and vegetables and of raw liver* provide active oxidizing enzymes which facilitate rehabilitation of the liver. Iodine and niacin supplementation is used. Caffeine enemas cause dilation of bile ducts, which facilitates excretion of toxic cancer breakdown products by the liver and dialysis of toxic products from blood across the colonic wall. The therapy must be used as an integrated whole. Parts of the therapy used in isolation will not be successful. This therapy has cured many cases of advanced cancer." - Gerson M.D., Max. A Cancer Therapy Results of Fifty Cases. New York: Gerson Institute, P.U.L.S.E., 1990.

*And just so your not feeling sick to your stomach all night, they removed the raw liver juice from the therapy a few years back.

So I'll leave you with that for now as it is bedtime for me!